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sweet sensation of Oregon
well here i am i just got back from girls camp and im here with my favorite cousin Lauren...we are going to have a RAD party tonight with her friends and ill finally to meet this Lazelle that i supposively will be "hooking up" with...but well this should be an adventure..ill tell you all about my vacations once i reach home sweet home!

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i dont know what im going through but all i have to say is that i never really knew how much i need new friends..they make everything seem like its my fault and i have been letting them get by like this...well anyways im over that punk jeremy and now i want Devon...hes sweet and is a great guy...he actually cares you know?well maybe you dont but i better go now.bye

Awsome Wednesday Night
dude wed. was awsome...i got to go out for pizza with my bro(cody) and his gf Amanda...and i got to kick it with her and shes awsome shes perfect for my brother you dont even know how perfect!she said shes going to take me out friday or saturday night and we're gonna go meet some guys for me but see there going to be older!hehe.dude shes totally awsome and tonight me and cody are going to Chuckee cheese to go see her because thats where she works :)shes so nice to me and to my brother...i feel that shes the one for him..and i know it will work out.

smokee da bear
hey..i just got off of the topic of drugs..i know ill never do it because all the ones i love end up hurting themselves with it and i ask why and they have the reason of like"my parents passed away" but do you really think there parents want them to die so young?atleast live your life complete.. i have been asked to smoke many times and all the times i have stood up for myself even if i were alone or if i were with a crowd..why do something that can hurt you and hurt the ones you love?i dont know if im the only one that thinks my way but if you are in my situation email me or IM me...britt-i have a bad feeling about this weekend..

Song of the Week is.....
Artist: Biz Markie Album: The Diabolical Bizmarkie Title: Just A Friend~~~~ Have you ever met a girl that you tried to date But a year to make love she wanted you to wait Let me tell ya a story of my situation I was talkin' to this girl from the U.S. nation The way that I met her was on tour at a concert She had long hair and a short miniskirt I just got onstage drippin', pourin' with sweat I was walkin' through the crowd and gues who I met I whispered in her ear, "Come to the picture booth So I can ask you some questions to see if you are a hundred proof" I asked her her name, she said blah-blah-blah She had 9/10 pants and a very big bra I took a couple of flicks and she was enthused I said, "How do you like the show?" she said, "I was very amused" I started throwin' bass, she started throwin' back mid-range But when I sprung the question, she acted kind of strange Then when I asked, "Do ya have a man," she tried to pretend She said, "No I don't, I only have a friend" Come on, I'm not even goin' for it This is what I'm goin' sing You, you got what I need but you say he's just a friend And you say he's just a friend, oh baby You, you got what I need but you say he's just a friend But you say he's just a friend, oh baby You, you got what I need but you say he's just a friend But you say he's just a friend So I took blah-blah's word for it at this time I thought just havin' a friend couldn't be no crime 'Cause I have friends and that's a fact Like Agnes, Agatha, Germaine, and Jacq Forget about that, let's go into the story About a girl named blah-blah-blah that adored me So we started talkin', getttin' familiar Spendin' a lot of time so we can build up A relationship or some undderstanding How it's gonna be in the future we was plannin' Everything sounded so dandy and sweet I had no idea I was in for a treat After this was established, everything was cool The tour was over and she went back to school I called every day to see how she was doin' Everytime that I ccalled her it seemed somethin' was brewin' I called her on my dime, picked up, and then I called again I said, "Yo, who was that?" "Oh, he's just a friend" Don't gimme that, don't ever gimme that Jus' bust this You, you got what I need but you say he's just a friend And you say he's just a friend, oh baby You, you got what I need but you say he's just a friend But you say he's just a friend, oh baby You, you got what I need but you say he's just a friend But you say he's just a friend So I came to her college on a surprise visit To see my girl that was so exquisite It was a school day, I knew she was there The first semester of the school year I went to a gate to ask where was her dorm This guy made me fill out a visitor's form He told me where it was and I as on my way To see my baby doll, I was happy to say I arrrived in front of the dormitory Yo, could you tell me where is door three? They showed me where it was for the moment I didn't know I was in for such an event So I came to her room and opened the door Oh, snap! Guess what I saw? A fella tongue-kissin' my girl in the mouth, I was so in shock my heart went down south So please listen to the message that I say Don't ever talk to a girl who says she just has a friend

help me
my day was horrible....my mom wouldnt stop buggin me about all that sex talk and guy talk..she doesnt understand how my life is or how I am...i think sometimes i grew up too fast but then again everybody acts like how i do...ive changed from the past month...i dont care about anything its like all i say is i dont care whatever and dont worry about it...i dont like the new me but it seems like i cant turn back now im too far ahead i need help..but i cant talk to my parents my family i can talk to my friends but basically there going though the same thing...i dont like the new me and it scares me because i no theres no turning back and it even more scares me because i think im turning more and more alike like my brother...help me

Have You Eva?
~*~*have u eva*~*~ have u eva just sat n cried all because the one you love lied have u ever wondered y should i try when all that boy does is make me cry have u ever just played your part even though u knew he'd been cheatin on u from da start have u eva loved somebody in every way to da point u didn't know what to say have u ever just came apart because the one u loved played with ur heart have u eva wished upon a star but that wish never went very far have u eva laid down at night and thought why did i start that stupid fight have u eva felt used and all this time been confused have u eva felt like giving up when u had ur gurlz beside u alwayz cheering u up r u tired of writing ur 1st name with his last knowing it will neva be ~*~*~* me too *~*~*~

Future Weekend
i have no idea whats going on this weekend...i just got off the phone with danielle and ashlee and i think we are all staying at ashlees but i dont know if were going to the movies or funworks or what...but i need some green$$$haha well if you have some money to donate holla at me! :)

Hyper today
hahahha well today was awsome...i cant even barely explain...in library during 5th period i was so freakin hyper i was all like hummping danielle and then i got mad at her and i licked her arm...lol i know funny isnt it lol and then today after school i jumped on ashlee and i made her fall and then danielle jumped on us too and we were all on our asses in the WET grass which really sucked for us because it looked like we like pissed in our pants....lol well i cant wait for tomorrow!haha!

SleepOver..ZZzzZZzZz
ZZZZzzzzzZZZZ.....the sleep ova was awesome i had Ashlee Brittany and Danielle stay the night and we had a little water balloon fight with like 9 year olds.lol yea i know sad hu?and we just hung out and like everybody went over to my house thursday night and we all watched The Ring and thats like REALLY scary haha i was cuddling up with some guy i just met..haha his name was Scott i think i dont know Brittany knows him...but Ashlee was with Chris they need to go out and the awesome thing about that would be that if he went out with her see Jeremy is Chris's best friend and see I want Jeremy and i know i can get him but theres something stopping me...i dont know what but i need to find out ...NOW!!!

Addiction
Let me tell ya bout this addiction That has taken over me It makes me feel like a crack head Because I always seem to fein I'm addicted to this guy That can unlock my soul He`s got control of my heart He is what makes me whole He is my one and only And he`s so very sweet His qualities are so amazing He sweeps me off my feet He`s got all my love And all of me He`s my drug, my high, my addiction, He is my ecstacy He affects me in ways That even he does not know He tells me not to worry Because no other girl will make him go And he`s got no competition With me he reigns supreme Placed high above all others Atop my throne he is my king So my addiction you have learned Is my wonderful guy I love him so very much He is my natural high!

life....
life...what really is life?i dont have one obvisouly...i mean i do but really i dont...i dont know what to do right now im at that awkward age where either your too young or too old...things just dont seem like they do anymore i mean its like i use to skin my knees and cut myself now its just getting a broken heart..i dont know whats worse.I know what has changed...my family,i have 4 brothers and i have got to know most of them pretty good..except nick and cody,nick left for college right when i was going to 1st grade so i dont have much of a history with him and cody....i dont know.hes only 4 years older then me, we use to be close but to tell you the truth i dont know what happened..i love him so much but we always get in arguements...i know he does drugs and it makes me really mad and sad that he does it...i wonder if he knew it hurt me so much would he still of done it?i dont know if im being selfish or not but i love him and i dont know what to do...hes older and he deserves to make his own mistakes but this is the worst.man do i wish i could just have a brother that i could talk to all the time...be there for me.know the same things im going through i mean i do have friends but its not the same like talking to someone you love having them understand you...i love my family and thats why we have a life..to love and to be loved...

OfF tRaCk!
YAY!im finally off right now for a freakin month!!haha all you other losers in school you can suck my toes! :)

I Have Great Friends!..
Man i have the greatest friends ever...if you think about it thats like the greatest part about living...you got friends...i mean there always there when you need them especialy when you need them to bail you out of something...not that i would need anything to bail out of...hehe..well anyways,...friends are great ...one time i got in trouble and my best friend Brittany got me out of it..I may sound like a "bad girl" but really im just a "quck chick" thats what my friends call me...and whats really cool about having friends is that theyll give you really cool names..ok well that sorta sounded a little lame but anyways..they call me " quick chick" because i like things fast im not a patient person...i like things really fast...and if i dont get it fast enough i get mad...and another name my friends call me ..." Wild/Crazy girl" they call me that because im a little dare devil ill do anything no one will do...if you tell me to run in a grocrey store and ride on the little wheelchair thingy that old people drive ill do it...if ppl tell me to fake an endry i do it..if someone tells me to act poor and ask for money i do it...so make sure that when you say something crazy dont say it around me ill do it....but i got something really important to say and its really true....Make your enemies your friends! that makes your life way easier im serious too...your friends are so important in life they can make the greatest fun for you and you can do the same for them you should have different kind of friends...like ,skaters,retardsok maybe not them,nerds,popular,all the different kind of people you will be a better kind of person...

School.....Gay School....
Ok I seriously hate school it cant get any gayer then it already is...I mean I have computers for an exploratory how gay is that..and we cant even talk to people when were online over there,ok can we say gay?!yeah i sure can...and guess what?!?i got a F on a social studies test..man i hate socail studies.ok well now i gotta go study for my science test tomorrow i gotz to bizounce

school
im at school

GuYzZz
Well well well....This weekend was a super weird weekend.lol Well see on Friday it was cool...Because I found out that i coild spend the night at my friends house Danielle.So i went to her house after school and we get there and i wanted to call my boyfriend...so i did and we were talking about boring stuff.then i told Danielle to call on the other line of his phone and act like this girl named Andrea.So she did and he clicked over back to me and said he had to go and talk to his "UNCLE" but he really didnt because Danielle was really on the other line so he was lieing to me right there and he didnt even know.then i called him back i was yelling at him like hecka because he said he was single and that he broke up with me like a week ago which is such a lie.so hes all look Abby we need to break up.im all uhhhh your got that right.and i was going on and on about how hes such a freakin lozer and stuff like that.and then Danielle's cousin Josh walks in and starts yelling "Go abby go abby uhhhhhhhhh"i was just seriously on a freakin roll man.lol.so then i was chilling with her cousin, Josh and his friend,Adam.There aight.lol.but then on saturday(known as today)we went to the mall known as me Ashlee and Danielle. and we got our pictures taken and we bought some really cute stuff but anyways it was pretty fun/funny.hopefully you had a better one.;)

School
Man do I hate school!I just had to walk all the way home from it just now and it takes me about 10 minutes to walk all the way home but that's just me walking if someone else was they'd probably walk faster but if my teachers stopped giving me so much freakin homework then id be ok! Anyways today was the worst day ever......Let me ask you a question to who ever is reading this right now.....Has anyone made you cry?Well this happened to me today at school and this guy called me a slut....I know it doesnt seem that bad but from your X- boyfriend its just so mean. i mean i never said anything mean about him and right behind my back he says stuff about me...Even though he made me cry I'm not going to start a big fight with him....Because he should of known better

Game!
Today we have a football game against the Cardozo school!We're gonna win no matter what!

......boredness.....
im very very bored.......is boredness even a word ????oh dude that word is funny

I'm Sick
You are probably wondering why Im not at school today huh? Well because Im sick not really really sick but I don't feel the best right now so thats why I didn't go....But now I'm really really bored!!!

Poems
Happily ever after, That's how they want you to think it will be, But it's not, Not at all in reality. The deaths, the tears, the fears, the falls, Through it all we still go on. The broken hearts, the cheating friends, So much pain that never ends. The fake smiles that seem to make everything ok, But no for you, because you know the pain won't go away. Bright and cheery, but oh so weary, Because inside your heart is breaking in two. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Once again i stand in the rain, Feeling like every thing has been in vain. If you could enter my head, You might think all sanity has fled. Thoughts & fears come and go, Only the painful ones seems to grow. Things I bottle deep inside, Are the feelings i try to hide. God, life isn't fair, Inside I want to scream & pull my hair. At problems in my life I scream & curse, And then i look around & find some one who has it worse. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ **********Boyz*********** ** A heart is not a plaything ** ** A heart is not a toy ** ** But if u want yours broken ** ** Just give it to a boy ** ** Boys they like to play with things ** ** To see what makes them run ** ** But when it comes to kissing ** ** They will do it just for fun ** ** They never give thier hearts away ** ** They play us girls for fools** ** They wait till we give our hearts ** ** And then they play it cool ** ** You will wonder where he is at night ** ** You will wonder if hes true ** ** One minute you will be happy ** ** One minute you will be blue ** ** So to fall in love with a boy ** ** That takes alot of nerve ** ** You see my friend you need a man ** ** To get what you deserve **

Just a Poem that i find sad
-Die for love- I sit in the park where I dwell For this boy I love so well He took my heart away from me Now he wants to set me free I see a girl on his lap He says things to her he never said to me I ran home to cry on my bed Not a word to mother was said Father came home late that night He looked at me from left to right He saw me hanging from a rope He took his knife to cut me down And on my dress a note was found: Dig my grave Dig it deep Dig my grave From head to feet And on the top place a dove And remember this, I died for love….

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I guess everything happens for a reason....Like on how one of my friends Jessica is going out with my X-BOYFRIEND(Jake) and on how my friend Brittany got in a fight with Candace but now there best friends again....And on how me and Ashlee and Danielle are best friends...And well, I guess you get the point of my life....I screw it up but then all at the end of the day it goes good.it's all peaches 'n' cream i guess..I just wish that i could move somewhere way out of this city or state or school..I want to start a whole new life and have new friends and get a new boyfriend!Let's just say i don't really like my life.

Im mad
Im so mad right now because I have no idea where my other site is!!!!!Im hecka mad!!!!!GRRRRRR

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